As I mentioned yesterday, my week didn't start off too well. Factor in a nasty sinus infection, a teething toddler, and a husband that's being forced to work all the time and you don't necessarily have a wife and mother with an attitude of gratitude that's for darn sure. Hey, I'm just being honest. Lately it seems life is just piling up on me and I'm struggling to stay above the water. I have a house that I've been dying to decorate for the fall for weeks now but I can't even begin to think decorations with the amount of laundry slowly piling up in our master closet. I've cooked exactly two meals for our little family in the past two weeks. And I couldn't tell you the last time our toilets or floors have had a good cleaning. Needless to say, I wouldn't make a good hostess at the moment. I haven't slept but a handful of hours in the last two days. This morning I literally went through a drive-thru to grab breakfast, paid, then drove off. When I got to work and was getting my things to carry inside, I realized I'd forgotten to even get my food from the lady at the drive-thru. I had to turn around and go back to get it because a lack of sleep combined with a lack of food for breakfast would make for a very grouchy teacher. Thankfully the young lady at the drive-thru understood where I was coming from but I still felt like a total idiot.
But despite how things have been recently, I've been trying to find small moments of positivity to hold onto and keep me from drowning in self-pity. I recently read a quote that said "When it rains, look for rainbows. When it's dark, look for stars". What a powerful reminder. Instead of being upset that we have so much laundry that just never seems to get done, I'm reminding myself that we're blessed to have so many clothes when people barely have any. Instead of being frustrated that Harper is up at all hours of the night screaming, I'm thankful that besides a few ear infections and the occasionally fever from colds and teething, we have a healthy baby girl. Some people aren't so lucky. Instead of being frustrated that I'm often the one at home with Harper because the hubs is working twelve hour shifts every day for weeks at a time, I'm grateful that my husband has a job; to top it off, he loves it. It provides more than enough to meet our needs as well as our wants and not worrying about when our next check will come is one less thing we have to worry about.
So despite how often things to go "wrong", I'm doing my best to look at the big picture and see how much is going right for us in the Holt household. Some days it's harder than others but for today, I'm seeing rainbows instead of rain. Any of you ladies with me?